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Am I Fat ? (Part 4)

Now February 2011, my weights are 55 kilos and my heights still 1,59 m 😀

now i can say that i’m not fat anymore……………………………..

well it doesn’t mean my diet is done. i want to lose another 5 kilo or even better 7 kilos

but i thought that it is time for me to give my body a time to relax, i will start diet again next week, but now i want to give present to myself because i can reduce 26 kilos…………

Today, i went to mall and saw many people and i thought people who fat, is not only their fault but it could be because their parents and their environment. maybe their parents are too busy so they can’t give attention to what their kids ate or drink. they only give them what they like, like fast food or ice cream or other junk food. i don’t say that they can eat all of that, if i said that i would call myself a liar, because i also eat that, but not too often. yes i thank god because i have great parents they always care with me and my sister and brother, they always paid attention to what we ate and drunk. or because they busy they don’t have time to eat regularly and just eat anything that fast and easy, at any time.

truthfully i became fat after i went to university and life away from my parents, so i have to ate outside and because i lazy, and when i had a homework or paper, i’d forget to eat and sometimes i just ate anything that fast and easy, and i believe that what make me fat.

not that i criticize people, but i thought that people should care with what they eat and drink everyday, and hopefully their parents will help them with that. actually after i life away from my parents, i miss home made food, i believe that my mom’s food is the best, it healthy and tasty.

it is said that when you are young you can eat anything, because you are still in growth period. well i thought that it not too corect, well yes you are still in growth period but if you already in fat or worse obese condition, i thought that you should do diet, i mean healthy diet, change your snack from biscuits, candy, ice cream to fruits and vegetables, yes i was hard at first but trust me after a week you’ll get used to it, and as additional benefit, fruits and vegetables are good for your skin.other things are reduce your behavior drink soft drink with mineral water or tea. you can use sugar in your tea but not too much.

and don’t forget to do exercise like walk for 30 minutes a day, and use stair instead lift if you only need to go to 2 floor. it is work.

well that all only my 2 cent….and my experience…..

ps : still learn to keep myself healthy 🙂


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Am I Fat ? (Part 3)

In early 2010 i decided to reduce my weights again, but because i easily felt bored and basically i don’t like exercise and i love eat, it was like punishment for me to do diet. i don’t mind doing exercise but diet?? oh my god………..:(

i take me almost 6 months to lose 10 kilos, because when i felt like doing diet, i did it and did exercise. but when i felt bored i stop diet and do exercise only halfhearted. well it’s hard, hut i manage to reduce 10 kilos. that means in the end of 2010 my weight was 62 ( i lose 19 kilos, from 81 became 62). and my pants’ size change from 14 to 12 well, when i saw that i felt happy and felt that my “sacrifice” paid off.

i went to department store, i wanted to buy a new pants, unfortunately they didn’t have my size, i tried number 10, it fit but, it was too tight. and then i tried number 8 well it was look like i wore a legging. but i bought number 8, i said to myself ” i’m gonna wear this someday”

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Am I Fat ? (Part 2)

After i decided to reduce my weight i started to diet and do exercise in a gym. i did treadmill, static bike, and many other things. i success reduce 9 kilos, my weight now are 72. quite good i think, then i stop diet and did exercise, fortunately my weights were stable in 72-73.

until i got job, my weights arround 72-73. huahahaha i know i’m still big, but at least not obese anymore. as usual my family still told me to reduce my weight they said i’m still fat (yes, i know it, don’t said that i don’t know, i knew it very well). i don’t felt like doing diet and exercise, so i didn’t do it. i still don’t care.

well i graduated in early 2008, i did diet for 3 months, got job at 2009. at early 2010 i decide to reduce my weight again. why? because i jealous with my friend, they could buy clothes with Rp. 50.000 ($. 5) while i have to spend more than Rp. 100.000 ($ 10) to buy one clothes, and it is hard to find my size.

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Am I Fat ? (Part 1)

i’ve been thinking lately…….

am i fat? that’s my question to myself, i think i’m not fat. well i’m 1,59 m and my weights are 55 kg.

but 2 year ago, i can say that yes, i am fat, obese actually. At that time my weight almost 81 kg and my height only 1,59 m

of course i look like a ball.

my mother always told me to reduce my weight but i didn’t care. well i knew that i’m big but i never thought that i’m obese until lately. i know i’m fat but when i looked in the mirror i couldn’t see what wrong with my body. yes i knew it’s hard to find clothes and pants, especially pants, so i went to tailor to make pants. my mother, my cousin, my aunt, almost everyone in my family told me to reduce my weight but i didn’t care about it.

what make me decide to reduce my weight happened after i ate food that have high calories and cholesterol and of course fat. suddenly i felt pain in my left chest. wait a minute could it be that it was signal that my heart gave to me to warn me? that was what i thought at that time. after that event i decide that it was time for me to reduce the weights.


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wonder, lately what i want the most is sleep all day long, maybe because this week i always get up in the midle of the night and i can’t sleep anymore until dawn.

and when i don’t get enough sleep i wanna eat something that sweet and tasty, like cake and ice cream, and that is still in my blacklist at least until 5 of December argh………………i wanna sleep…..


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Chance the bandage

i just came back from hospital for change the bandage.
and i have to go again to the hospital this thursday. well actually it is not a problem
because my head section is a nice person, he allows me to go there. the problem is the doctor,
because he didn’t want me to paid for his services because i am his friend’s cousin.
not that i’m not grateful but i don’t feel right. i felt like i took advantage from my cousin name.
i wonder how to make him accept the payment. 😦

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Small Operation

it is only small operation, just relax, it’s gonna be alright
yup, that is what the doctor said to me. but still, i felt nervous.
it was hurt when he injected the anaesthetic, after that i began felt numb in my palm,
i didn’t feel anything, just like something scartch my palm. the problem began when the operation was finish
and they have to do stitched up,when the last stitch it painful because the anaesthetic effect almost gone, then the doctor injected it again, then he said, do you like eating tape ketan? or brem?
because the anaesthetic suppose to be last until 2 hours, but it wasn’t 1 hour past and i already felt pain, he thought that maybe i like to eat something that contain alcohol. well, it turn out that when me and my sister gave anaesthetic, the effect will fade sooner. But i don’t know the reason.

now, i’m waiting when i can use my right hand like before. because it’s quite hard to do everything using only my left hand, but because this operation, at least i can use my left hand better than before. 🙂

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